How Great is our God!

That's the title of a song that I have really found myself identifying with lately. It speaks of the wonder and awesomeness of our Lord; every word is true. We serve a King that is amazing in every way. And that's really what my blog is about today.
I really have found myself not enjoying life at all from time to time. Certain things are going on in life that are just beckoning me to fret over them, and that creates an overwhelming feeling when mixed with daily struggles of sin. That's exactly what satan wants me to feel: overwhelmed. And sometimes he does a mighty good job of it. I was really trying to talk to God last night but it was just tough. This morning, I just felt horrible and I really wanted to be in His embrace, but I had no idea how.
One thing that was really troubling me was that I didn't know how to express my feelings to the Master. I want to do better, and I want to have a pure heart and focus, but lately my actions and attitudes haven't displayed that as positively as I would like. But then He came in "not in the earthquake, not in the fire," but in a whisper. And He said: I understand.
Isn't that great about our God? He understands! If time were infinite and I had millions of words to pour out, I still couldn't express myself to God as deeply as I'd need to. But He understands anyway. Better than that, He understands my thoughts better than I do myself. And even better than that, He understands them before I even have them. Psalm 139 says it beautifully, "You are intimately acquainted with all of my ways... You understand my thoughts from afar."
But the whisper from the gentle spirit that helped me most said, "Let go."

"Seek first the kingdom of God and righteousness, and all of these things will be added unto you... Come unto Me, all you who are weary... Trust in God, trust also in Me."
~ Jesus

"Let go of the girl. Let go of the family. Let go of the obligations of the day. Let go of the mistakes of the past. Let go of the room. Let go of the house. Let go of the earth. Let go of space. Let go..."
Let go until I have let go of everything, and it is just me and God. It's just me and God! Nothing else mattered excpet being one with my Father, knowing that He understood my whole heart. And that was a good feeling at first, but also very humbling. He is holy and I am not; it is terrifying to be in His presence. But praise be to God for Jesus Christ who justifies, and more than that, who sanctifies. Our God is awesome! Don't forget it!