I Just Don't Understand It...

God's love and grace and mercy is such an enigma to me. Not only does He know every sin I've ever committed; not only does He remember every time I came to Him on my knees and then turned around and messed up again; He knows every sin that I'm going to commit, for the rest of my life! He knows my mind, my heart, my speech, my deeds; He knows it all. And yet the Bible says that He has no condemnation for me? And yet His word says that nothing can separate me from His love?
It doesn't make sense! Why? Because I don't know that I could love someone who had wronged me like that. If I knew every mistake a person would make against me: the treason, the treachery, the offenses, I don't know if I could bare to be around them. And when I wrong someone else, I expect them to be angry, upset, and unforgiving. So if that is how humans deal with one another in love, I don't understand why God wouldn't, right?
Well, think of it like this: are we trying to understand God as from a human point of view? Are we trying to make God in our image, instead of the other way around?
God is not human. He is not finite. He has no start and has no end. He is eternal. And that enables His love to be unlimited.
It absolutely doesn't make sense to me. I mess up and I feel like God should want nothing to do with me. That's what seems natural. But the reality is, if His Word is true, that He still wants to love me, forgive me, and use me.
Whoa...
As Paul put it in Ephesians 3, it's good to try and wrap our minds around how much Christ loved us, but we can never fully get it because He loved us beyond understanding.

"For this reason I bow my knees before the Father, from whom every family in heaven and on earth derives its name, that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with power through His Spirit in the inner man, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; and that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ which surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled up to all the fullness of God."